During the last General Conference, Elder Uchtdorf gave the talk "Of Regrets and Resolutions". I remember listening to this talk and thinking of Kayla and Beav. This wasn't just another General Conference talk - but he was describing what they are experiencing at that moment.
Uchtdorf spoke of a nurse who would often ask her patients who were close to death, "do you have any regrets?"
Being so close to that final day of mortality often gives clarity to thought and provides insight and perspective. So when these people were asked about their regrets, they opened their hearts. They reflected about what they would change if only they could turn back the clock.
- I wish I had spent more time with the people I love
- I wish I had lived up to my potential
- I wish I had let myself be happier
I have had this talk in my heart and mind since October.
Beav was an example of all of these things. I don't think he left this earth life with any regrets, other then he wished he had more time on earth with his family. He was a pure example of happiness, and living life to the fullest. He was also an amazing husband to Kayla and father to his two little girls.
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Kayla got married 5 years before I did, so she and Beav met or heard about the various guys I dated. I always got a very honest opinion from them and Beav was always quick to give the guy a nickname... I think my favorite was "Little Shirt, Little Shorts Dude" ( this guy did always wear clothes that should have been taken out of his closet 4 years prior haha too tall for most of the things he wore).
But they were always good sports and looked out for my best interest.
Kayla and Beav didn't get a chance to meet Colton until we were already engaged. I had told Colton all about Beav and how awesome he was and how they HAVE to be "Bros"! Colton quickly corrected me and told me that I CANNOT decide who his "Bros" would be - "it either is or isn't". Well needless to say him and Beav clicked immediately. When Kayla and I would be on the phone, they would call each other and the same time, we could barely hear one another because they would be SO loud telling each other stories and laughing.
We are so glad they were able to come out last October and spend some quality time with us. We have watched their strength and courage through this trial of cancer, and have learned a lot from the both of them.
My heart goes out to Kayla and the girls at this time. But I know Beav is watching from up above and they will all be reunited again some day.
We will miss you Beav!
